Well It's been way to long since I lasted posted here and I am sorry for that. Sometimes you get so caught up in life and one thing leads to the next and your day is gone. I've been having a bit of a rough patch this semester so far. Been getting sick a lot, the dorms are breading grounds for all sorts of nastiness. Classes have been stressful to say the least and of course what is life without a little heartbreak. Things have just been adding up and adding up until this weekend when I had a set of crazy dreams and a reoccurring thoughts. I'm trying to make sense of all of this and the more I think about it the clearer It gets.
I've been thinking to myself lately "why are you in college?". May seem like a simple answer to most, to get a degree, right? Well what if you didn't need a degree in life, what would you want to do or be? Sure if you answered doctor or lawyer you're going to need a degree. If what you answered doesn't have a job title, what then?
Ever since I was a kid I knew I wanted to help people. To a kid that means becoming a firefighter or police officer. Throughout life those ideas of how to help people change as you realize how much cruelty and pain there is in the world. I think the purpose of my being is to help and love others... it makes sense it always has. How can I do this though? well its not that simple obviously or I'd be doing. Do I need a college degree to do these two task? I'm starting to think that staying in college for the next 4-5 years isn't going to help my cause. I see the pros and cons in staying in college and leaving college. But what do I do now?
The way I see it now, I could go to college for the next 4-5 years and add up all my student loans and debt, and when I get out of college I'll have to start working to pay those off. Or I could figure out a way to travel and help others and make an impact now. travel young, explore whats out there and find out what it is I really want to do in this world. If I decide I need to get a college degree to accomplish a goal I develop down the road, college will always be there for me.
All we want in life is to travel, fall in love, and be happy. The journey down this path is up to you.
Thanks for reading,
Matt
Monday, February 18, 2013
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
The Real Beginning
Well I'm finally back in Colorado after a month of being home. It was good to see my family again but I'm glad to be back. If you stop and think about why people move away from home or travel a lot, what is the reasoning? New jobs, bucket lists, spouses new jobs or is it to be around like minded people? In life your friends all think alike, you want common interests with people. Well if you can't find that what else is left in that city to make you happy? The number of people I could connect with back home is too low for my liking, so I chose to move away. I can connect with so many people here and they seem to actually value what you have to say and what you want to do with your life. Maybe its just the certain classes I am in or have taken, but thats the vibe i get from most.
Classes started on the 7th for us and my a pretty golden. two out of my four classes have to do with my future career choice directly and its nice to finally get to start on your life. Up to this point people ask you want you want to do when you grow up, well now you actually get the chance to make the progress towards that goal. Im taking an adaptive aquatics class that will give me an opportunity to teach disabled children how to swim and I'm ecstatic about that! My other class is my beginning class in Adventure Education (my major) this is where ill get all my information about the back country, skills, and develop teaching methods. I couldn't be happy with my classes right now.
That being said, me being joyful and optimistic about my future, not everything is all sunshine and rainbows. If you want to live a lifestyle thats out of the norm, if you wanna be a man or woman of your own and travel the world, you're going to hurt people. Im not talking about beating people up physically I mean emotionally. Its often said "You hurt the people you love the most". Why though? Does it have to be like this? I honestly don't know the answer to this question. Maybe we try to protect the people we love from anything that may happen to us or maybe we think we cant provide someone something if you're always out doing some big adventure or committed to something heavily. Sometimes you want the person to understand what you're doing and want them to join you but they just don't understand the lifestyle you want to live so they outcast you.
Whatever it is it happens and be prepared but at the same time be prepared to meet some of the greatest people you will come in contact with. Everything happens for a reason and its up to you to decide why. Decide whether its the end of something or actually the beginning of your next adventure. Like always thanks for reading!
-Matt
Classes started on the 7th for us and my a pretty golden. two out of my four classes have to do with my future career choice directly and its nice to finally get to start on your life. Up to this point people ask you want you want to do when you grow up, well now you actually get the chance to make the progress towards that goal. Im taking an adaptive aquatics class that will give me an opportunity to teach disabled children how to swim and I'm ecstatic about that! My other class is my beginning class in Adventure Education (my major) this is where ill get all my information about the back country, skills, and develop teaching methods. I couldn't be happy with my classes right now.
That being said, me being joyful and optimistic about my future, not everything is all sunshine and rainbows. If you want to live a lifestyle thats out of the norm, if you wanna be a man or woman of your own and travel the world, you're going to hurt people. Im not talking about beating people up physically I mean emotionally. Its often said "You hurt the people you love the most". Why though? Does it have to be like this? I honestly don't know the answer to this question. Maybe we try to protect the people we love from anything that may happen to us or maybe we think we cant provide someone something if you're always out doing some big adventure or committed to something heavily. Sometimes you want the person to understand what you're doing and want them to join you but they just don't understand the lifestyle you want to live so they outcast you.
Whatever it is it happens and be prepared but at the same time be prepared to meet some of the greatest people you will come in contact with. Everything happens for a reason and its up to you to decide why. Decide whether its the end of something or actually the beginning of your next adventure. Like always thanks for reading!
-Matt
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
A New Year. A New You?
Well we've made it another year. It's 2013, we survived "The End of the World", We've survived a lot really to get to this very moment in life. Take time to reflect on everything in your life, past relationships, near death experiences, blissful moments, all the moments you thought there was nothing left.. major breakdowns. Look you're still here and living. If you're alive you're should be grateful because its a miracle.
So this whole vision about New Years, who thought it worked like this? It's a new calendar year so its a brand new me! I'm going to do everything right this year!! everything that for the past 18 (or however old you are) years I haven't been able to achieve! Well... I'm sorry I don't think it works like that folks. These New Years Resolutions are just lies that we tell ourselves and our friends to make it seem like "hey I finally have my life figured out!". Look I'm not saying it can't happen, I want it to happen for all of you! If it really mattered to you though you wouldn't wait till the first of the year to start, you would start it immediately, as soon as the thought crossed your mind. You owe that to yourself! If you make these resolutions make them simple and realistic. Not "Im never going to eat fast-food again!" cmon who actually follows through with that? monks I guess. Hell I bet some poor bloke has seen a monk in mcdonalds grubbin' down on 550 calories of death that is a Big Mac. Small changes, soon they will lead to other small changes, etc. Eventually you'll be living the life you want.
I didn't do anything for New Years. I stayed in with my family and watched movies. To me that was more important than going out with some people who I haven't seen in a while and probably won't for a long time. I don't plan on moving back to Oklahoma for the summer. Oklahoma has nothing to offer me. I don't believe it would be beneficial to be here working some dead end job. I need to be out Working some job that will be useful. what is it? I don't know yet, I will find out soon though. sometimes things just fall into place. Often the best things you have in life play out like that.
So whats my year like in review? If you care, assuming you do since you're reading this. 2012 Was the most life changing for me and I would say the best year so far. I was a vegetarian most of the year, I stopped for a while but I think I'm going back to it, makes me feel so much better. My racing season I put up some of my best results, winning my last race in Arkansas. I was sick for half my season too, sometimes I wonder if I haven't of gotten sick where would I be with cycling today? I applied to college, graduated high school. Had my first real job at a summer camp. I learned a lot about myself there. Realized my passion I have for kids and where I got the idea for my camp. Completed my first semester in college which has been amazing! I love it there! I've learned so much about myself and the most important thing I've learned is I don't know anything. There is so much to life and myself and others I don't know about and have the longing to learn. It will just take time.
So yes its a new year and I want to wish you the best of luck. Just because it's a new year doesn't mean that you're a new person. You're still the same person you were at 11:59pm December 31st 2012. You want change that will last? Do it on your own time, don't do it because society tells you that you need to.
Thanks for reading,
Matt
So this whole vision about New Years, who thought it worked like this? It's a new calendar year so its a brand new me! I'm going to do everything right this year!! everything that for the past 18 (or however old you are) years I haven't been able to achieve! Well... I'm sorry I don't think it works like that folks. These New Years Resolutions are just lies that we tell ourselves and our friends to make it seem like "hey I finally have my life figured out!". Look I'm not saying it can't happen, I want it to happen for all of you! If it really mattered to you though you wouldn't wait till the first of the year to start, you would start it immediately, as soon as the thought crossed your mind. You owe that to yourself! If you make these resolutions make them simple and realistic. Not "Im never going to eat fast-food again!" cmon who actually follows through with that? monks I guess. Hell I bet some poor bloke has seen a monk in mcdonalds grubbin' down on 550 calories of death that is a Big Mac. Small changes, soon they will lead to other small changes, etc. Eventually you'll be living the life you want.
I didn't do anything for New Years. I stayed in with my family and watched movies. To me that was more important than going out with some people who I haven't seen in a while and probably won't for a long time. I don't plan on moving back to Oklahoma for the summer. Oklahoma has nothing to offer me. I don't believe it would be beneficial to be here working some dead end job. I need to be out Working some job that will be useful. what is it? I don't know yet, I will find out soon though. sometimes things just fall into place. Often the best things you have in life play out like that.
So whats my year like in review? If you care, assuming you do since you're reading this. 2012 Was the most life changing for me and I would say the best year so far. I was a vegetarian most of the year, I stopped for a while but I think I'm going back to it, makes me feel so much better. My racing season I put up some of my best results, winning my last race in Arkansas. I was sick for half my season too, sometimes I wonder if I haven't of gotten sick where would I be with cycling today? I applied to college, graduated high school. Had my first real job at a summer camp. I learned a lot about myself there. Realized my passion I have for kids and where I got the idea for my camp. Completed my first semester in college which has been amazing! I love it there! I've learned so much about myself and the most important thing I've learned is I don't know anything. There is so much to life and myself and others I don't know about and have the longing to learn. It will just take time.
So yes its a new year and I want to wish you the best of luck. Just because it's a new year doesn't mean that you're a new person. You're still the same person you were at 11:59pm December 31st 2012. You want change that will last? Do it on your own time, don't do it because society tells you that you need to.
Thanks for reading,
Matt
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